Kelly's Journal

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Thu, 18 May 2006 15:18:58 GMT

wow its been awhile... here's whats new.
i started work. its nice. i make some money. good.
we moved!! that was a bitch, let me tell ya. but i love my new apartment and it was good to get out of the old one. it just made me miss kalie and my other lovers too much for some reason. i think its because it was so big and so empty. i know, i'm weird.
i kinda hate summer already, but at the same time i'm kinda getting used to it. it really really sucks, and i miss everyone like CRAZY! but its just something i have to deal with and life for sure goes on! this week was fun actually, but very busy. between work and moving and hanging out w/ some friends, i am wore out but it was a pretty fun at the same time. i pretty much take stuff one day at a time... its the only way i make it through i think...
ummm nothing else is really new i don't think.
ryan flew out to arizona this past week and he loves it out there! which is great for him because him/katie will be very happy when they move. i'm sad about it though... i'm so used to him being an hour away and now he'll be on the other side of the country! i'm glad for them at the same time, i know they'll like it... so as long as they are happy, thats all i want! only 2 months 'til they move... damn how time flies and drags at the same time.
i'm starting to freak out about the whole grad school thing. now i dont' even know if i want to go! just because i'm not sure exactly what i want to do, so why go to grad school for something you aren't completely sure you want to do? ugh the future is so uncertain, and i hate that!! i hate change!! booooooo lets not think about that.
um thats about it. i think.

stuff

Sun, 30 Apr 2006 20:35:25 GMT

Well hello. SO much has happened that I seriously don’t even know where to begin!
OK, lets just say that the past few weeks have been the most amazing and the most horrible all at the same time. I’m not ready for it to be summer :(
My brother just accepted a job in Yuma, Arizona teaching at the same school as my cousin. I’m so excited for him, but I’m going to miss the hell out of Katie and him. I’m so close to my bro and its going to suck only seeing him maybe twice a year. But its an amazing opportunity for him and Katie, so I’m glad they are going somewhere that they will be happy. It just sucks, that’s all. They are moving right after their wedding, so in 2 months! crazy! I also found out that my grandpa is probably getting married again! I’m happy because she makes him very happy again. I haven’t met her, but I’m sure she’s awesome. I think the best part is that she has already talked to both my grandpa and my parents/I about knowing that she can and never will replace my real grandma. That’s comforting to know that she won’t try to take her place, but of course we are going to love her and welcome her into the fam. I’m sure she’ll fit right in, that is when/if they get married! I’m excited for my grandpa – he needs that stability.
I’ve been partying like a rock star and having the time of my life though! School is almost over (thank god b/c my brain is fried). Oldies night, O’Kellys on Tuesdays, partying on the weekends, and Reggae was yesterday :) oh man what a crazy time that was!!! I’m sad though, I love all my senior lovers and my best friends that are moving away for good or just for the summer. I’m SO bad at dealing with change, and one week from today, my life is going to be turned upside down. I’m ready to embrace it though, and to prove myself to everyone else and most importantly, me. Life goes on, some stuff sucks, and whatever happens happens for a reason.
Some odds and ends:
~I HEART REGGAE! What a great time…
~CHICAGO THIS WEEK! I almost forgot I’m going to Chicago this week from Thursday-Saturday :) its going to be so fun, but I’m going to miss not partying with all of my favorites before they all leave to go home for the summer. I’m excited though!
~I’m so freaking in love its ridiculous.
~We lost in the IM vball playoffs. It kinda sucked, but the other team was just better. Great season HC Gals!

Well I think that’s it. I’m sure I’ll update soon.

cough cough

Thu, 13 Apr 2006 02:41:08 GMT

so this is whats up:
i have bronchitis. they gave me good meds. i sound like shit. enough said.
i got a summer job today :) i got hired at subway here in MP and i'm pretty excited. not my favorite place in the world, but i actually have a job and i'll finally be bringing in money! its going to be a full summer with work, volunteering, weddings, and just plain having fun! i'm still dreading it, but not quite as much. i've kinda come to terms with everything that is going to happen... there's nothing i can do, so i'll just take it as it comes and love the life that i'm living today! good philosophy.
oh and a prof asked me to be a part of his research team in the fall, which is pretty cool. its going to be another great experience that is for sure going to help me out in the long run. and the best part is: he asked me and i didn't have to go looking! and its on something that is going to be so cool. its going to be A TON of work, but well worth it i think. good stuff.
easter is this weekend :) i'm actually looking forward to going home for a few days and spending QT with my fam. friday my dad and bro are taking me to the bar!! three of my other favorites are coming too which i'm super excited about. i just hope i feel better in time to go! and even if i don't... screw it. i'm going. free alcohol from my dad?! since when does this happen?! oh yeah, never. i better take it while i can!
moving in about a month! scary... this whole year has just flown by. i can't even believe it. and kalie is leaving... i'm sooo sad! i'm gonna miss her like CRAZY! but i get to be an aunt to her kids, so its all good...
we're 3-1 in IM volleyball, which means we make the playoffs! YAY go HC Gals!
well i think thats it. time to go take a bubble bath because they are awesome :)
HAPPY EASTER

Sun, 09 Apr 2006 01:17:37 GMT

ahhhhhhh i hate feeling like this!
i seriously don't even know what to think anymore.
i don't even know what to do anymore.
you confuse the hell out of me.
i want things to be the way they were.

screw it.

so amazing

Sat, 01 Apr 2006 19:34:37 GMT

well, tons has happened i must say.
I'M FINALLY 21!! my bday was amazing, filled with everyone i love the most. brenda came up on friday, and my family and ashley came up on saturday. i have realized that i have the most spectacular friends in the world, and my family is my true backbone. i was so glad that i didn't get completely wasted. i was a perfect level of drunk, and i just had a great time. it all went by so fast now. and its weird being able to go to the store and get into the bar and not have to worry about getting MIPs and stuff. weird but very nice!
so besides my birthday, i've been super busy with school and the social life. its crunch time for school now and i feel like there isn't enough time in the world to get stuff done. it probably doesn't help that i have no motivation whatsoever to do anything. i just dont' care anymore which is horrible! i'm starting to wait for the very last minute to get stuff done, bad bad habit. but i'm still doing good so it can't be all bad right?!
i can't believe its april already. this month is gonna fly, with easter, birthdays, parties, the wedding shower, plus school. i'm actually kinda dreading summer now, which sucks let me tell you. everyone i love and truly care about (minus stine and anna b/c they are staying) are all leaving, and i am absolutely horrible at goodbyes and leaving people i love. even if it is only for a little bit. but i figure that things will all work out, and its getting through the shitty times that makes everything that much better.
but the good news is that i get to go to chicago in the beginning of may, and my brother's and kalie's weddings are this summer. plus i'm legal for cheeseburger and all the other summer festivals that i will hopefully be attending. stuff to look forward to, but also stuff to dread.
um i don't know what else to say. i'm happy, extremely happy. i just want it to last!
ok time to do hw and clean. of course...

Thu, 23 Mar 2006 04:36:01 GMT

quick update...
I TURN 21 ON SATURDAY! soooo excited! only two days left... can't wait to see my amazing friends! i'll update sometime soon to inform you of the amazing times i had!
life is crazy but amazing. so much going on and so busy!
did i mention that i LOVE my life?! i'm so happy. it just doesn't get much better!
we won our first IM vball game tonight YAY. i love it, but i'm actually pretty sore! so out of shape.
ok my mind's going blank. time to sleep. oh wait, i mean do more hw.
love you all!

new stuff

Mon, 13 Mar 2006 20:36:47 GMT

well, spring break is over. which is good in a way, but crappy in many more. i have to get back into the swing of things, and this second half of the semester is going to be killer. so much to do, so little time! i guess thats what i get for putting everything off until the last minute. spring break was actually pretty fun though. i loved hanging out w/ my family for awhile, and i got to see brenda which was amazing! then jenny and i went to chicago for 4 days to check out some grad schools and do some shopping/partying. it was really fun. we got to meet up w/ some friends downtown which was cool. all around it was a good time, and looking back on it, it went by really fast! but i was glad to be back... i missed my favorites TONS and TONS! it was so amazing coming back... for real.
but anyway. not too much is new. projects are starting up now which are going to suck. OH i will be legal in 12 days!! oh man i CANNOT wait! ashley is for sure coming up (YAY) and brenda should be too. its gonna be great to go out w/ my friends and let loose. and finally be able to go to the blackstone and o'kellys on tuesdays and buy my own liquor whenever i want. amazing. it can't come fast enough!
IM volleyball will be starting soon. yesssss so excited!
the storms last night were awesome! it didn't get any better than last night... :)
um i think that might be it. i need to do hw, as usual.

stuff

Tue, 28 Feb 2006 04:42:04 GMT

yup so its been awhile. here's what i can think of:
spring break is right around the corner. yup, thats all i'm gonna say about that. it stresses me out. for more reasons than one...
this semester has flown by! i can't believe its half over with. and kalie is graduating. and i have to move. and i have to find a job so i can finally make some money. and study for the GRE. and find grad schools. yup, great. but its gonna be WARM! and i get to move into a cute little place w/ stine. yessss
this past weekend was a good time. saturday i got WAY too drunk i must say. i thought i was drunk last weekend, but this just surpased them all. but i for sure do not regret it - it was an amazing time and i'm allowed to be a drunk ass every once in awhile! thank god for jenny and smigga is all i have to say. they both saved me!
i'm sick of the doctor. i don't want to deal with it anymore. i'm scared.
I MISS JON AND ELYSE!

ok so i'm stressed. too much going on. i think of some stuff and i just want to cry forever and ever. then i think about other stuff and i'm the happiest girl in the world. its weird. but i just remember and figure this stuff: goodbye only means see you later, everything happens for a reason, and 90% of what you worry about never happens. i'm the only one that can control how i live my life and how amazing it becomes, so bring it on! i'm the only one who is with me my entire life, so why not make the best of what i've got?!
so yup thats about it. now all i have to do is learn to just laugh and live everyday like its my last. easier said than done...

ahhhh

Mon, 20 Feb 2006 15:30:37 GMT

hey all.
this weekend was good. had fun w/ the roomies on thursday night, got WAY too drunk on friday (but had a blast), and hung out w/ an amazing new crew on saturday night. laying around all day, going out at night, and a little bit of hw thrown in there. good times. nice weekend w/ just the girls. the ice on thursday was crazy though!!!!! it was thundering which was cool. i love thunder!
this week is going to be hell! two tests, two papers, a presentation, and part of a group project due. crazy crazy. its all part of college though. and next week shouldn't be too bad i don't think. good.
i'm stressed out like crazy right now! just get this week over with!
going home on saturday and sunday for my mom's bday. i'm excited to be home again for a day or two. i miss my parents. and my hot tub. and CHANCE! god i love that dog.
ok i need to work on homework and stuff. i've been a slacker. as usual.

Wed, 15 Feb 2006 21:28:41 GMT

wow... this is really pathetic (in the great way, if thats possible). i can't believe i feel like this! its gotta be unhealthy for me to feel this way!! but ya know, maybe its a good thing :) maybe i'm finally where i want to be. soooo happy its ridiculous!
TACO NIGHT with the roomies is tonight! yessss
ok thats it. i just wanted to tell you all who read this that i'm happy. very very happy. bye loves.

haha amazing

Sun, 12 Feb 2006 21:07:34 GMT

life is so good.
all i have to say about last night is AMAZING!!!!
i have the best friends in the world, and trust me, we know how to have fun! we went to a white trash party hosted by some football players. (yes, thats right. hot football boys!) i must say, our crew looked damn hot! it was the most amazing time i have had in a long time. it was so fun to be out w/ my girls, doing my own thing, and letting loose. i met alot of really cool people and got to witness a love match in the making! awwww you know who you are :) they will be a cute couple WHEN (not if) it happens!! drank a little too much i'll admit, but totally worth it. not sick or anything which was good. the best part was being able to have a crazy time w/ my girls but getting to come home to my boy though! awww i know i'm so sweet. check out the pics!
time is going by incredibly fast. it really kinda sucks actually, but at the same time its good. college is great, but so will the rest of my life. i'll be ready when that time comes, but until then, i'm gonna live it up!
this week will kinda suck. tests and papers. and other things. but oh well, thats what school and life is for.
yeah things are still bugging me. i wish i could speak my mind about alot of things that i worry about. i think i'm just to afraid to say stuff or to be honest. three different things are bugging the crap out of me, and i'm too scared to do anything about it! its so dumb i know. maybe sometime soon i will get the courage to be honest w/ those i love the most. about me being annoyed, but most of all, about me being SCARED TO DEATH!!
but yup, i'm a pretty happy girl. once again, life is so good!

i just want you to know that i've fallen!!!
volunteer meeting time.

oh boy

Wed, 08 Feb 2006 00:20:45 GMT

um... i don't know where to begin!!
this past week has flown by!
the weekend was great - movie night on thursday, sara's bday party on friday, hanging out w/ my parents on saturday and saturday night going to phi sigma phi for the jersey party, sunday was, of course, the super bowl... busy busy busy! there was no time for anything but fun!
ok so there was time for things not so fun. but lets not get into that. all is well (I HOPE!) and i am alive so thats all that matters, right?
i'm getting really PISSED off about some things that never really used to bother me. i guess i knew it would come eventually. i think i just need a break from things. from planning and from making decisions and from not being able to do my own thing. thats right: ALONE! independent. free of baggage. every once in awhile its just nice. but ya know, its such a small deal in that huge world thats out there. so oh well, it just really doesn't matter! :)
i'm not getting sick, i'm not getting sick!
cosmos at 630 are amazing.
YAY for ludacris on thursday! that should be fun :)

well i'm drawing a blank. maybe there's more important things, but i can't think anymore. psi chi time.

just a quick update...

Tue, 31 Jan 2006 04:52:16 GMT

well, this past weekend went pretty good. i had an amazing time on thursday as usual. sneaking into the VIP party was fun, even though i didn't really even know i was doing it until after we did it. oh well, good times. i love bacardi. then friday i went to see my bro coach since he is doing that thing now. it was interesting. he is helping coach the varsity basketball team for reed city (where he's student teaching). i guess all of the guys asked him who i was. they all wanted to meet me and ask me out :) stupid HS boys... then saturday and sunday i spent in detroit w/ ryan, katie, julie, and katie's family going shopping for the wedding. we got our bridesmaid dresses! they are very cute and will look good on everyone. i love it!!! so excited. expensive, but who cares. my bro only gets married once right? (lets hope!) i am glad to be back home though w/ my lovers. i missed kristine all this past week since she was gone, and i'm so used to seeing all my friends over the weekend. some definite catch up time w/ the lovers is needed.
school is going good. two tests tomorrow. enough about that.
life throws you curve balls. most of the time i take them, sometimes i don't. but i'm beginning to learn to let go of those things i can't change. its working...
my parents are coming to visit this weekend and i'm soooo excited!! i haven't seen them since around new years, and since i'm so used to seeing them every weekend (with ryan's games in the fall) i'm going thru withdrawls! don't get me wrong, its nice being independent from them and being able to do my own thing. but i do miss them, so i'm excited. i'm cooking them dinner :) i'm such a nice daughter.
sara's bday party this friday! YAY! and the super bowl too? damn party party party!
i miss jenny. my other half isn't around as much anymore...
it rained this weekend! totally made my day. rain is amazing and always makes me happy. i went running in it... i know, i know, i'm a dork. who cares. deal.

well there is the update on my life for all of those of you who read this for some reason. ok, maybe back to studying. bye loves.

Wed, 25 Jan 2006 17:07:56 GMT

wow the bar last night was AMAZING!! the day was all pretty shitty (as you can tell from the last entry) but my friends, once again, pull thru at the end of the day and save me. even though they don't know anything about what is going on, it was better that way yesterday. it meant that things could just be normal and i could go out and be me. i have the most amazing friends and have met some of the coolest people lately! it felt good to finally laugh and be happy last night. to be independent. to let loose and forget about everything going thru my head and just HAVE FUN! it really was amazing... plus it helps when people are buying you drinks all nite! lol
so i'm only slightly hung over. not a big deal. soooo worth it! lots of hw to do though, which kinda sucks.
i think i might be getting sick. too much stress, and being outside in the blistering cold w/o a jacket. and walking home at 2 in the morning, trying hold my friends up and not fall into piles of snow myself! yup, good times. i'm dreading turning 21 now... i'm going to spend so much money and i'll probably turn into a lush! oh well, its all fun.
ok, its nap time. or just lay around and recover. good deal.
thanks again my lovers for last night! i'm so glad i have you - you are the greatest...

boooo

Wed, 25 Jan 2006 02:40:18 GMT

well, lets see. i am one not happy girl. which doesn't happen very often. bastards.
this week has sucked and it is only continuing to go downhill.
but the thing is, people don't even know it. because i'm damn good at putting on a show. thats right.
its like my heart is shattered in a million little pieces but i just hold it together by pieces of thread so that the people i care about the most don't see how i'm actually feeling. thats horrible isn't it? it should be the other way around, i should be going to those i love to help me get thru this, but im not. because for some reason i'm afraid to show it. to say what i'm thinking. to do what i actually want to do that will make me happy. i want to say exactly what i want to say and not be worried about what people will think. and i want to just forget about everything, to start completely clean and not think about shit. i want things to be the way they were. i want to see eye to eye and i want things to be easy, but they aren't. nothing in life that you want that bad is ever easy. but i seriously want to just give up even though it could mean giving up something for the rest of my life that could make me the happiest person ever. but there is that big COULD in that sentence. i don't want to wait for that to happen. i don't want to wait for the future when maybe someday things will change. and i am sure they will change. but i'm not ready to wait. i've been victim of waiting for the past few years of my life and i don't want to waste anymore time waiting. maybe my expectations are too high. i'm too afraid to not wait. i'm too afraid that something better is NOT out there. i'm too afraid that i'll look back on today and wonder why i gave up everything that made me ridiculously happy. everything that made me ungodly happy and horribly PISSED all at the same time.

ok well that was nice. screw this though. its not worth my time.

Wed, 18 Jan 2006 01:32:38 GMT

is it possible to be so completely happy and so completely terrified at the same time?? i shouldn't even be asking because i know its true. i'm just trying not to be terrified and to forget about it. its not gonna happen. no its not.
I GOT A 100 ON MY EXAM IN MY GRAD CLASS! how freaking awesome is that?? yay!
ok so the ice completely sucked today.
i was in pain all day!! just hide it, just hide it.
kalie made the best cookies ever tonight. omg so yummy. so much for my workout today!
i love everything right now (except for one or two things but nothing can be perfect). but at the same time i'm ready to move on to bigger things. i'm all caught in the middle. weird.
my bro and katie applied for jobs near orlando, FL this week. i am excited for them, but i'll be sad if they move! i'm close to my fam and them being so far away will suck. but i guess i'll have to get used to it with me going away to grad school and stuff. speaking of which, i have to start studying for the GRE's. damn.
well, time to go relax since everything got cancelled for tonight! yesssssss cookies, candles, and a magazine. it doesn't get much better than that!

whoa

Sun, 15 Jan 2006 17:42:30 GMT

so wow, what a past couple of days. except for a few things, they've been pretty close to amazing!! hanging out, going to movies, partying, getting to dress like a slut even though its not halloween, oh yeah, fun times. going to aaron's and playing liquor pong last night was fun, and then later the camo party was a ridiculous good time! i love meeting new people and just letting loose for once. the camo shirt i made turned out pretty good - everybody seemed to like it! i love bacardi limon, it is by far the best. and turkey sandwiches at 2am seriously save lives.
i've learned lately that sleep is overrated. for some reason i just can't sleep! too many things going thru my head i guess. or i'm just having entirely too much fun! so much fun that i have no motivation for school. i seriously just can't wait for the weekends to come around so i can spent QT with my favorites and just relax. eventually i'll get back into the whole school thing... i hope!
is it summer break yet?? i want to be in ryan and katie's wedding and go to kalie's wedding now! i'm soooooo excited for them!

cute pics from this weekend's parties! i love my life...

hm

Tue, 10 Jan 2006 03:37:47 GMT

once again, a bunch of randomness:
i love meeting new people! i met the coolest group of people the other day... they are seriously sweethearts and they are so fun! looks like i found a new gang to party with, which is awesome! good things are happening...
but school sucks!! *sniff sniff* i'm not ready to start another semester. where did the time go??
jenny help me with chemistry!!!
did you know there is a $70,000 income gap between blacks and whites? damn.
thanks for the flowers...

ok, here's what i really wanted to say:
i wish i could tell you what i really think about. i wish i could be completely honest and not worry about what you are going to think or say. so many things i want to say... so many things its ridiculous.

ok, bye for now!

holy crap

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 18:44:16 GMT

so last night was completely AMAZING! for a awhile i wasn't sure if i was even going to go out, but its a good thing that i did because it was sooooo fun! i had a great buzz going right when we left, so i figured i'd be all set. but then kalie, kim, and i got to the party (where kalie and i didn't know anyone) and guys offered us tequilla shots. we obviously were not going to turn them down! then we bought a cup and went to the keg. a girl was doing a keg stand and then asked kalie and i to do them too. well, neither of us have ever done one, so we decided we were up for it. kalie went first and lasted 11 seconds, then i went after her and lasted 12. thats a huge freaking accomplishment because I HATE BEER! it was kinda fun though, and everyone was cheering us on. following the keg stand was dancing on tables and just having a great time meeting new people. *sigh* completely amazing. very very fun. except for being extremely hung over today. not so fun. but worth it. i love college.

i am going to miss my usual crew during class this semester. and then they are graduating... oh man i love you elyse and jon! and no class w/ anna either? this semester is going to SUCK in that aspect. oh well, grad classes can't be that hard, right???

ok, my head hurts again. time to lay back down and not feel so sick. damn you (but thank you too) tequilla and keg stand!

Sat, 07 Jan 2006 00:32:18 GMT

~so this entry is complete randomness...
i've officially determined that life is boring without the people you are closest to. good thing for my roomies though - three out of my many lovers is better than none!
i spent entirely too much money today. stupid books!
kyle is officially my savior.
being bored makes me think. this is where it gets deep. one of the many questions that came through my mind was: Why is it that those you love the most (and those who love you the most) are the ones that always seem to completely shatter your heart? i guess if you aren't close to someone, them fucking up doesn't really bother you. that could be the answer. but i've determined that no matter how much you love someone, you always seem to end up hurting them, whether you mean to or not. i know i'm guilty of it, and others are guilty of shattering my heart. it kinda sucks. half the time i think people don't even know they are hurting the one they love. or they do but they just don't care that much to change or fix it. its such a crazy world. maybe if i stopped caring so much about some people it wouldn't be such a big deal. but if i did that then i really wouldn't be loving anyone now would i? ohhhh, deep. enough of that.
i'm still waiting to hear about my last grade from fall semester. sooooo close to a 4.0!
it was sunny today! completely lifted my spirits. although a thunderstorm would have done the same.
apple martinis, bacardi limon, and my most favorite drink in the world, HERE I COME! yay for the bar/partying tonight! i heart kalie! lets hope i'm not hung over tomorrow & i have fun tonight...

i miss you tons. just thought you'd like to know.

things

Thu, 05 Jan 2006 20:26:38 GMT

well not too much is new i guess. just got back to MP from a few more days at home, which were fun. kristine came home with me and now she realizes how in the middle of nowhere elkton is! so many funny stories- she is my favorite. aaron even took her for a ride in the tractor which she LOVED! so great. what a fast few days it was. now school is right around the corner and i'm completely not ready! ugh school sucks! i need atleast another week of vacation to just relax and get stuff together. so much stuff has happened over break - most of which was pretty shitty. there were great times and absoloutely horrible ones, but oh well. i'm over it - its not worth dwelling over!
ok this was kinda a pointless entry. more soon.

Sun, 01 Jan 2006 16:58:46 GMT

i was going to write something, but i guess i don't really feel like wasting my time writing about stuff that words cannot really explain. its all just not worth it. i told myself i'd never be treated like shit again, and now that its happened, i don't know what to do. i always knew what i should do, but when the time comes, it never seems fitting. or maybe i'm just too scared to do it. damn. damn damn damn.

ok but yeah not to be a downer or anything. i forgot last time to talk about what an AMAZING time i had w/ my three fav girls over break at the christmas party. dressed up, open bar, good food, dancing... yup it was great. going to bed at 8am was pretty amazing too, and sleeping five people on a pull-out isn't the best idea in the world. but it was seriously the greatest time in the world and i am so lucky to have such spectacular friends!! i love you bre, jen, and kristen! oh and tres, it was nice spooning with you! LOL

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! hugs & kisses.

tons to say

Sat, 31 Dec 2005 19:20:11 GMT

well, xmas break is FLYING BY! after exams were over (the night of the last update) my roomies and i ended up getting a little more drunk than we would have liked to. but ya know, thats ok. because we had tons of fun singing and taking shots. then the next night (the night before going home) i drank too much yet again and ended up spending part of the night on the bathroom floor. oops! but i must say it was a grand time and its probably how tonight is going to turn out as well. HAPPY NEW YEAR!!
xmas break has been ok i guess. kinda stressful actually which was weird. being home was nice, but i hate rules and not having as much freedom as i'm used to. i loved seeing my family and especially my dog! and the hot tub was a big bonus as well. i got some cool stuff for christmas and lots of stuff i needed, which was awesome. we went shopping and katie got her wedding dress! it was a 1,000 dollar dress but she got it 55% off so she got a great deal! she looks amazing in it... i can't wait until july!
my grades turned out good. four As and one A-, which might be switched to an A. so go me for a 4.0 (maybe)! next semester will kill me. but oh well.
a couple other things happened over break that seriously broke my heart. not good. very not good. but i think i'm pretty good at hiding it all, atleast i like to think i am. life's full of those shitty times though, and i try to just make the best of what i have. and hide the rest. good plan.
ok thats it i guess? i forget what to write about. yay for new years! drink up.

whoa

Wed, 14 Dec 2005 23:24:29 GMT

yeah so i completely almost died today! a lady ran a red light and came inches from smashing into my side of the car. yeah, not a good thing. it made me think about all of the things i would have never told people and all of the things that i have yet to do in life. weird that it could have been the last time i saw my friends and said "i love you" to people i really care about... so to everyone: I LOVE YOU GUYS!
BUT (on a MUCH lighter note) the rest of today was surprisingly very good! i found out i aced my psychology research presentation and got a 95 on my paper, which means i got an A in the class and i'm done with my psychology major! YAY. then at my audit today i found out i have all my compenticies done, all of my UPs done, and all of my degree requirements done. so all i have left is 2 classes for my sociology major and the rest are random credits of whatever i want! sooo easy and such good news! then i went out to eat w/ jon and elyse. they are the two nicest and most amazing people, and i'm gonna miss them like CRAZY! it was fun hanging out w/ them though - i love picking on jon :) drinking tonight w/ kristine, hopefully she wont' wuss out on me. she's done after her night class, which means its time for her to drink and celebrate! she's worked so hard this semester and totally deserves a night of relaxation and fun. tomorrow will be uneventful but tomorrow night will be awesome and i just can't wait. LIFE IS SO DAMN GOOD!

brrrrrrrrrr its freezing! but atleast its snowing!!
i finally get to start the book i've been dying to read all semester. i love being done w/ school for awhile. and i love you :)

yessssssss

Tue, 13 Dec 2005 21:10:19 GMT

I AM DONE WITH FINALS!! whoohooo!! SO excited. it couldn't come soon enough! all i have left is a few things to attend for classes, but no more studying, no more stressing out! its all in the hands of my profs now. i'm pretty sure i did good though. no worries for now. and if i didn't get the "A", oh well, life goes on!
so now i'm sooo excited for the rest of the week! just hanging out, drinking, sleeping in and staying up late. i got a four-pack of diff kinds of shots from kristine for xmas. so... a shot today for me being done, a shot tomorrow for kristine being done, and two tomorrow - one for kalie being done and the other to getting DRUNK thursday nite! YAY kalie and kristine are coming out w/ me which is totally awesome, plus jenny and all my fav people. good times good times. i'm very excited to hang out, relax, and drink w/ my favs. i love college. it is an amazing time...
I HAD JIMMY JOHNS TODAY! oh man i swear its just heaven to me. amazingly good. buy me one sub from there and i will be happy for atleast a few days. jenny and i pretty much decided to screw studying and go get a good lunch. nothing better than being spontaneous and hangin out w/ my best. i didn't know a few things on my test i had earlier today b/c i didnt' study enough, but who cares. its just a test. plus i only needed a 66 on it. so oh well. jimmy was so worth it.
you've completely caught me off guard.
and thats it. time to lead a boring life of hanging out and doing nothing. good deal.